Well, well, well, I am actually doing something that I thought I would never do, and that is to write down my thoughts for the whole world to have access to.
You see, this started from a comment my sister made.
She said I should start a blog documenting Silas'(my son) behavior.
I laughed!
But the idea seemed to sit for a bit (to be honest it only sat over night). I guess
that means I have thought about documenting my son and my daughter's journey, and
my own journey with them. It just never crossed my mind to do it in a public place. I
am not a writer. I have,over the short years of my kids lives, kept journals of their
milestones and our treasured memories. It is a joy to read through them and to remember
them frozen in that particular time. The thing is, is that I haven't been consistent. I really want to be. Not only for them but for myself, and for their kids. Everyone in my family knows how reminiscent I am. So, this to me seems like a way to hold myself accountable in writing about them.
Going back to what my sister said, about starting a blog, was more about the place we find ourselves with Silas. He was diagnosed with a speech delay when he turned two (which was last year). The past year has been filled with a lot of valleys in our journey with him because of this. There is so many emotions surrounding this that I don't really even know where to start. I guess that's why when my sister, Janette, mentioned this, it lingered. Maybe writing about it will help me to process it a little better. We have gotten tremendous help for his needs, but it is a path that seems like we take a step forward and three steps back. I fully believe he will speak clearly one day, but the "one day" seems very far off at times. In the midst of the valleys we have also had some amazing mountain top experiences with Silas. He is a sweet, gentle, feet-loving three-year-old.
But this isn't just about Silas, it is also about our beautiful daughter Sienna, who is six-years-old. To know Sienna is to love her. She is filled with such joy and sweetness that can only be known in a child. She loves fiercely, and truly believes in princesses,fairies, and leprechaun's. She to struggled with a speech delay when she was younger, but grew out of that and has had no true battles with it. Unfortunately, she does see the battle that Silas has with it and it affects her.
Just in these short paragraphs I feel a sense of excitement in doing this. It wasn't quite as painful as I was imagining. So, let the journey begin:)
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